New Year - New Story

Did you make your New Year's resolutions this year? Rather than make another list for the new year, I decided that the better approach to do this year is to tell a new story. I am tired of listening to myself telling that same old story

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At breakfast today, I found myself telling this same story differently. My sister suggested I find out who among my friends had birthdays this month so they could celebrate together. My immediate reaction was, there's no way I would do that as I might end up being the one to pay for it. My sister said I should suggest they treat us, but I kept repeating my story with incidents to support my ending up paying for the party. My sister kept telling me this was their chance to treat you, but I was adamant, so that ended our conversation.

After reflecting on what happened and seeing the disappointment on my sister's face, I started to reflect on my story, one I tell myself, others, and anyone ready to listen. It is now my running complaint. Nothing could change my account. Subsequent events continue to reinforce this narrative.

New Year is a new opportunity. I have stopped making my New Year resolutions which I found to be a useless exercise. But this time, it came to me. My way may need to be corrected. I need a change—a new story. I have repeatedly recounted the old one, and people are tired of hearing it.

Something more inspiring, more uplifting to those who listen when I tell it. I started my reflection. I dropped the old one, not even revisiting it. I felt free once I made that decision. New accounts came to mind. I am in abundance and have been looking elsewhere all these years, looking at the lack my generosity may create in my life. It was heavy, more so for me, embarrassing for my family, and insulting to my friends.

All these years, my response to abundance has been negative, making people uneasy and myself miserable. This year, I want to create joy and more of it. When before, I'll tell myself I'll do this when I have tremendous resources. This time, I will not wait for that. I will do it with whatever I have. It is not what you give that matters to people but how you do it.

The truth is, I feel uneasy receiving, so I create circumstances when I am the giver. However, I was not happy giving. Inside, I grumble and tell myself I will avoid these events in the future. I already told myself not to be around next year and look for a place where I can be alone. I am creating the circumstances based on my old story, the story I kept telling myself of how it always played out.

Upon reflection, I started to write a new story. It's no use looking at the old one. It has determined my life for many years. It's enough. What story would I want to tell? I am this story's writer and creator, and this is how I intend to live this new year.
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I intend to live my life more positively. I need to appreciate myself and others, too. I have always lived up to the expectations of others. The other day, my former classmate introduced me to her neighbour as someone who most probably memorized the books. That caught my attention. Is that the story I want people to tell about me?

I want a different story, different from the past one. I want a positive one, not based on past experiences I chose myself but grumbled when I did it. I want to look at it positively. I need to see my current reality again and become aware of its beauty. I need to imagine a future full of joy and abundance.

Here is my first attempt at composing a story: I am a competent person with many gifts, talents, and resources. I enjoy being with people, sharing myself with them, and allowing them to share their resources with me. I am good at encouraging people to reach their full potential and try to do the same.

I look forward to a world where everyone feels they are fully loved and supported by our universe, which we help to take care of and develop.
I will take the steps necessary to live this story, taking it firmly each day and going back on the path when I fail or stray. I encourage everyone to create a new story and move forward to a new world starting in 2026. Happy New Year!